Monday, September 11, 2006

Fortune Teller

The fortune teller said that I have many temptations. This is no surprise as life is full of temptations. Perhaps she reads not what is applicable to her clients, but reads what is foremost in her client's mind. For indeed it had been hovering about, nameless, until she nailed it and identified the squirming bastard.
I realise now that not only are mishaps a blessing in disguise as commonly quoted by elderly people, but blessings may also potentially become a mishap in disguise. If you exploit it, if you indulge in it, if you feel too confident about it. I do not.
But I feel immature. Because I am certain of how to handle my temptations, yet feel deprived. Because I am certain of where I want to go, but wonder where the other path leads. I feel I am not grateful for what i have, but that it is extremely humane to never feel satisfied. It is thirst, paired with an uncanny knack of getting water easily.
The fortune teller did not give me predictions of what my life is going to be, but she told me that the path I am trying to focus on is the right one. That's all I needed to know.

1 comment:

lifetime-learner said...

You're not the only one feeling it. But make sure it's not a self-denial, because the day you stop making excuses, that's the day you made it to the top =)